Sunday, March 25, 2012

3 月25日 Life goes on

Oh man where do I start?
Well basically school has been kicking my ass again. I'm always putting on this happy face as if nothing is affecting me. I'm trying so hard right now to not revert back into my depressive state which I was in two semesters ago. Every time I feel like I've lost I automatically give up. This time I can't really do that. For the sake of my education and my family...and my self worth.

I was given two options by a counselor two semesters ago. Either I get my act together and bring my grades up or get kicked out of the school. Some ultimatum yeah? -sigh- At the beginning of this semester I was fine. As the time went on I started to resent a certain class and the teacher and then my "not caring" attitude bleed over to my other classes. As of right now I know my grade in two of my classes look horrendous .  I've already told myself after spring break I'm going to be on top of everything! I don't know how many times I've said I was going to do that but I can't stop saying to myself now or I won't even try!

One of classes that I have been having the most trouble in, I'm worried about. It's not necessarily the work but the teacher. She is very forward, condescending and intimidating. It's so obvious she doesn't like me. Just by looking in her eyes you can almost tell what she's thinking of me; "I don't know why you are here. Please drop out of my class you nit wit." I know that seems harsh but I swear the way she acts around me is as if I've cursed her out or talked about her mother. Yes I realize I don't always have my homework turned in but is that really a good reason to act like a bitch towards someone? Obviously I'm struggling why won't she just talk to me? I would go talk to her myself but I'm afraid she might say something bitchy and just push me to the side. I'm not the only one who feels this way though. She chews everyone out in one is safe. Even her favorites get told off from time to time. I would of dropped out by now like so many other students have done already but I only have four classes. Which means I'm worried if I won't have enough credits to be considered a full time student for my financial aid. But I'm also thinking since I have already received my financial aid they can't take it away now right? I dunno...I guess I need to talk to a counselor again about that. Honestly, b/c of this teacher she makes me feel like I'm I have nothing of worth to say so I should leave. I feel like crying after that class every time. I know that I am smart and little does she know that half that shit she talks about in class I'm already fucking aware of. That's right bitch! I'm smart,  cultured and well rounded thanks to my parents and friends...NOT YOU! >8(

Well anyway basically school is stressful and I'm trying to push through. I'm sorry for ranting on here. I know you guys would rather see something more uplifting and fun but I needed to get this off my chest.
I hope you all are doing well with school or what ever endeavor you have in life.

Monday, March 5, 2012

New nails! (and pics)

Last Friday night me and Lisha decided to do some nail art! I don't have any pics of her nail art but I think you can find her nail pics on her blog or on her Facebook. We did them before we went out on Saturday night.

Now Saturday night we had a plan of hanging out at the karaoke lounge in Chinatown but apparently they started carding people at 9:30 p.m. and we had two girls w/ us (Tomo and Sam) who weren't 21 so we couldn't get in!. Of course we were pissed off but we didn't let that stop us! We went out to eat and then went to a friend's apartment and got drunk there lol lol. I didn't take any pics of that and I'm glad I didn't lol.

My nails:

You can't really tell but on the pink nails there is glitter on the tips.
I based my design from a photo I saw on tumblr.
original nail art design:
What I changed from this was I put white cross hatching w/ rhinestones on the thumb and glitter on the tips of the other pink nails. Although this chicks silver/glittery nail is shinier than mine.

These are probably my favorite nail design I've done so far. I can't wait to make more!!

Now on to the pics! They were taken before we headed ot that Saturday night. Tomo was just getting off work so she wasn't in these pics.

Me, Lisha and Sam

yes we all are chillin in the bathroom taking pics lol. There was better lighting there and a big space.


pointin at dat ass lol

Lisha too sexay! ow ow! lol >83

Lisha on crack lol lol <3

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Update and some new stuffs

Hey hey all! I'm still here lol. I should make an announcement now that I don't post as often mainly b/c of school and simply there isn't anything to exciting happening in my life right now.

Besides me writing papers for class and dealing w/ difficult teachers (just one teacher in particular) I'm really excited about the upcoming anime conventions. I'm in the process of making two new cosplays and I'm hoping to get them done w/ in like...8 or 9 weeks lol. I should of started doing them months ago but alas my procrastination wins again. I'm hoping to enter in my first cosplay contest as well! So yeah cosplay is on the mind right now.

The new things that I have are; a new wig, eyeshadow and my very first face primer (this I needed badly)!

I will take a better pic of my new wig soon but for now this is all I have to show you all >w< I'm actually somewhat regretting this wig now only b/c it's already trying to nap up on me! uuugghhh synthetic wigs make me so angry sometimes. I would get a human hair wig if they didn't cost 70 to 80 bucks T.T Too broke for that.

My very first Naked eyeshadow palette! My mom was on a shopping spree and got this for me. I'm surprised she got this for me. It was very unexpected but I'm very grateful for her getting it.

uuugghhh I need some better looking nails.

The little primer potion for the eyes. I have a larger bottle of this as well.

My mom also got this for me. This right here is like magic! My foundation would always make me a shade darker but when using this it matches my skin almost perfect! *3* I'm also a big fan of Too Faced products!

Tis all for now. Hopefully my next post will be a little more interesting and won't be so long from now >w<.