人生のアップデート (Life Update)

I'm more than sorry for not posting as much recently. I feel like I'm always making posts such as these. Right now my life is...or has been in this rocky place. Dealing w/ school, family, friendships, relationships, jobs/money (the lack of) and myself! Just a whole lot of things turning into one huge cluster fuck. It has taken a toll on me a lot b/c my mood swings have been crazy. I have been shutting others out and shutting myself away. While simultaneously trying to bring it all together.

This has also taken a toll on me style wise and artistically. My gal game has been at an all time low b/c I don't have the clothes to show for it. I mean I can take face pics of make up all day but I wish I could start taking more code pics. But who wants to see the same outfit every time? In my head I'm the most fashionable person lol but I just don't have the means to actually do it. By "means" I mean MONEY! And even if I wanted to take pics I have no camera b/c mine broke and all I have left is my web cam which can't take body shots w/ unless I'm super far away from it >w<. Just one thing fuckin up right after the other. By artistically I mean I haven't been drawing as much as I should. I'm an artist! This is what I want to do in life and yet I'm bumming around. This weird depression funk I'm in is something fierce. Never felt like this before.


With all that said and done I'm slowly feeling things getting better. I feel like something is turning in the tides for me. Since I'm trying to get into a new school (which I'm positive I'll be accepted into) I feel like a new chapter of my life is upon me. I'm nervous yet really excited. I also feel myself changing...internally and mentally. I'm hoping this is for the better. I'm using my struggle as something to push me forward. I don't want to be in this place anymore.

 

On another note...back to art. The latest drawing I've done was for my friend Michelle from FB. She actually paid me for it too. That was the first time I did a commission. I wanna do another! >8D I could use da monies! lol Here that piccy is:

 

I realize it now how hard it is to draw color things on photoshop w/ out a tablet. Cramped hands is not fun. Hopefully I can get a tablet for Christmas -crosses fingers- >w<

 

Goin to Chicago for a week!

WHICH MEANS I GET TO BE WITH MY BOYFRIEND AGAIN!!!! YAAAYYYYY!!! I haven't seen him since June ToT This long distance relationship stuff is hard but we are makin it work! BTW I'm leaving tomorrow! lol I know this is something I usually state earlier but I'm now making a post about it before I forget >w<

But this also means I gotta shave v.v No more hermit living lol lol.

This also means I get to see my gal pals again! It's been too long! I could really use a night out on the town w/ a drink in hand! lol lol
I'm going to see if I can use one of my parents camera's since mine doesn't work anymore v.v I've ben stuck using my web cam and I can't take my laptop around to take pics lol. Even if I tried my comp would constantly be dying b/c the battery is shot.

Hopefully I can capture some memories for you all lol

Natural hair update ( no hair piccies yet though )

I made a post about two months ago about me getting the "big chop" where I basically cut off my hair to a really small fro looking style. My hair is good and bad. Meaning it can grow thick but only in certain area's. This is mainly do to relaxer damage, the scalp infection I had and me constantly twisting on my hair.

I have been w/ out a relaxer for almost two yrs now and my hair is slowly healing itself. And I mean slooowww. When I see pics or look at vids of other African American women who stop getting relaxers and cut their hair I see that they get tons of growth w/ in two yrs. My hair on the other hand hasn't even reached an inch yet :/. Maybe on the top of my head b/c that's where my hair grows the fastest. But the hair on the sides and in the lower back (a.k.a "the kitchen") it's still really short.

Now I know one of main reasons my hair is still short in those area's is b/c I can't stop twisting my hair there. It's a bad habit that I've had since 5th grade. It's so hard to just up and stop now after all those of twisting. But I gotta learn how...maybe if I slowly ween myself from touching my hair so much. -sigh- I swear my hair grew faster when I had a relaxer. I'm learning so many things and ways on how to take care of my natural hair. Thank my lucky stars for youtube! Those "hair ladies" (I call them that lol) on there saved my life xD lol.

So now I'm going to be taking more active steps in my hair re-growth process. I have a good regimen for shampooing, conditioning and moisturizing. But what I left out was the health part. I don't always eat right and so I don't get the necessary nutrition I need. Now, I have started taking women's multi-vitamins and some Biotin pills for hair, skin and nails. Hopefully with these added things and me not touching my hair as much I can start seeing some real growth progress.

For those wanting to know what I'm taking, here's a pic:

Biotin 5000 from GNC and DG Health Women's One Daily multi-vitamin

I kinda feel like an old person constantly taking pills a certain time of day XD lol But I know this is for the best. I also wanted to start taking multi-vitamin's anyway b/c I wanna be healthy now and for when I get older. Just helpin the body out.

The next time I post a pic about my hair may be in January to see if I notice a difference in growth. Maybe earlier if I do see a difference before then. Wish me luck >w<

Another order I forgot to mention...

I had meant to mention this in my other post about the new wig. I had bought my first concealer palette the same day I bought the wig. I also bought it from ebay. The seller seems reputable and so far the feed back is good so hopefully this non brand concealer stuff is good.

It will be my first time working w/ it too and I desperately needed it. Not only for highlighting and contouring but to hide them dark circles I have! Also for doing my eyebrows. I've been watching multiple 'how to's' on youtube for using concealer so I just need to try it out. I should be receiving it in the mail around the same time as my wig which should be between sometime this week and next Tuesday. I also bought an angled concealer brush so that I can actually apply this stuff.

Here's what the the concealer palette looks like that I got:

I'm slowly building my make up collection. I really want to make a onee gyaru make up tutorial vid one day. I'm just waiting til' I have all the right materials so I can look beautious lol <3

Ordered a new wig (quick post)

Like the title says >8D I'm too happy right now. I ordered it from ebay (w/ the help from mama's credit card lol).

Although I have my fingers crossed that it's a good looking wig in person as it is online. Last time I bought a wig (that wasn't for cosplay) from ebay it did not look right at all. It looked completely different as to how it looked on their model than me. I gave that shit away and felt like I wasted money v.v

Here's what I bought:

I don't typically like brown hair on me...only sometimes. But I was not about to take a chance b/c the lighting in this pic could also be very different from when I get it. So opted to get this wig in black.

When I chose black this pic came up. This just looks like a darker brown than the other but I'm down w/ that. But then again I can also be getting fooled by the color. No matter, I 'll take black or a darker brown either way.

I bought this wig from Tasteful & Colorful store. If this wig comes out to be really nice I would buy from them again b/c I saw some other wigs that I want to get my hands on ^.^ ALSO I would like to mention I got FREE shipping w/ that wig! Yeeeaaaaaahhhh!!! lol lol

On the weight loss trail we gooo!

I have been trying to loose weight, tighten and tone for over four years now. I'm pretty sure I've made a post about it here some time ago lol.  Though I would start up so confident and then wind up not following through. Mainly b/c I probably set high standards for myself. I expected to see results by like the end of the week and I get discouraged lol

I'm tired of lookin at hot bods on tumblr and wishin that was me lol. Me and my boyfriend decided to work out more to get to our goal. I'm super serious this time lol. But this time I'm going to not set high expectations and try to just be healthy. I know I'll see results once I put in the time and energy. And since I'm not in school right now...nor a job I kind of have time and no excuses.

I have been subscribing to fitness youtube channels and following fitness blogs on tumblr. I feel like I have all the info at my hands I just need to put in the work. I'm going to be tracking  progress and taking pics. I will be taking pics to have a before and after shot. That is one of my goals. I want to be able to say I came from this to this and you can too! I wanna be inspiration to others and myself. Granted I'm not that big to begin w/ but an accomplishment is an accomplishment. I also want to start my green tea wight loss pills again. The ones I have aren't that potent but it's enough for me. I'm very weary of diet pills and these are in the safe zone for me lol.

I want to show you all the body types I want to achieve or just love lol. I have like a folder full of pics of women's bodies who I find perfect. I keep them as a reminder that I can be sexay too one day if I would just get up off my lazy ass! lol

accurate >w<

Thank the god and goddess I was born w/ a bubble butt so that part I'm not too worried about lol lol lol. Just gotta get everything else tight and right lol. I also want to mention that I also started doing yoga as well. I'm not sure when I'm going to start. I don't wanna put it off any longer. Maybe tomorrow lol I'm terrible lol. I might updates like once or twice a month maybe more if there's a lot results happening. Maybe when I have my full plan together I'll post it on here so others know what I'm doing. Plan as in my exercise and eating habbits. 

Welp until later, ttyl guys <3 ^.^


p.s. Also if any of you on the weight loss trail..or weight gain, you should tell me about it! Or if you have any advice that would be lovely too!

Me lately (late post lol)

I had went to the Japanese Festival here in my town (it was a three day event) this weekend. On Saturday I decided to look spiffy.

For some days....weeks I haven't been feeling very "gal" b/c I never really went out which meant I never actually put on make up (or clothes lol). Last weekend I made a change and decided to gal it up. I'm actually very happy how my look turned out. My main goal is to look oneegyaru and I think out of the years I've been doing gal I'm really happy and proud of how I looked. I felt like an A+ gal student lol.

Granted my top lashes could of been bigger but the ones I had from ebay didn't show as much as I thought they would. They looked big in the picture v.v

Here's a pic of make close up:

And here's a full body pic. I actually had a jean jacket that went this outfit but I don't have a pic w/ me in it at the moment v.v -sad face-

No shoes on yeah I know lol I don't wear shoes in the house especially on carpet. They weren't anything special. It was just some black sparkly sandals. ALSO, my best friend Lori bought me this dress! It was on sale for 10 dollars so she was nice enough to get it for me. It's actually my first maxi dress. I want a collection of them. 

Tis all for now loves. I hope to continue on my gal progress. ^.^  <3