Happy and not happy.

First off....YAAAYYY for winter break! time to be lazy...yet not lol

Lately I have become stressed over a few things. Some small some big. Though the first thing to piss me off is blogspot. For some reason it says that I'm not following anyone but when I went to re-follow everyone it said that I am already following them! WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!!! It says I'm follwoing people yet I have nothing in my feed! ggrrrr!!!

Second thing to make me worry even more is my hair! My hair now is so friggin damaged. I really don't why or how it got this bad. I am frantically trying to do everything I can to repair it. -sigh- My parents are thinking it might be something medically wrong w/ me so they are taking me to dermatologist and want me to get a blood test and shit like that. XP To add on top of this stress IM FAT! lol not really but I did gain 15 pounds and I am the heaviest I ever been in my life and I am NOT liking this at all! I need to shed this weight within the next to months!


To be honest my hair might wind up lookin like this...except my hair in the middle will be shorter v.v this style is cute but it's not the style i wish to go for v.v

Though some good things that have happened is that my bf and my roomate got me some cool christmas gifts and I shall treasure them always! ^.^ I'm also somewhat happy for Christmas to be here. I have a feeling I won't getting much presents but I don't really care. And I know thats not what christmas is about but to not have any presents still kinda hurts XP. I might even start eating more veggies! yaya!!! lol I hate vegetables so much but I wanna be healthy and I know that plays apart in my weight issues and my hair issues.

Just finished my second final...

I have two more tomorrow sadly. Although one of them I am completely ready for. It's just one of them I'm worried about but I always pull through...sometimes >w< lol I cannot wait til this week is over so I can get back to being lazy! lol but this winter break I'm going to working out ALOT and sewing like crazy! Why sewing you ask!? Because for those who don't already I like to cosplay and I have some things that need to be made! And A.S.A.P!

Also, the trouble between me and boyfriend is no longer there. We have made up to each other and we are back in lovey dovey land! ^3^

Tonight turned out differently than I expected.

So in my last post I was kind of stoked to celebrate my bf's birthday but then the drama happened. And it's mostly just between me and bf and my social awkwardness. I knew going to this party that there would be little alone time w/ him and he would want to hang w/ his friends and I totally understand that. But when the first wave of friends came over he didn't even introduce them to me, What did was had them start playing Call Of Duty and tried to introduce us. What male in their right mind would stop stop playing Call Of Duty to say "hi"? So of course it didn't go too well. I just sat there on his computer surfing the web. And being the shy person that I am I won't make the first move. 

Though as time progressed I got to know some of them and they really cool. Then it later all fell apart. As soon as everyone was done eating someone mentioned doing hookah and so everyone agreed on it (except me of course). The one thing I hate is when there's a party the only thing people can think of to do fun is fuckin smoke. LAME. And yes I know hookah isn't a dangerous substance but for those who know me and don't know me....I HATE ANYTHING TO WITH SMOKING. I actually can't stand the scent of hookah. And what made it worse is that my bf went somewhere outside for a while and came back smellin like fuckin weed (or cig's I couldn't really tell). He knows damn well I've talked to him about doin that and then he wants to act like we've never talked about it! Though he did apologize to me and was sorry and I accepted his apology.

Oh and he story gets even better. After he apologized I realized his friends were still in his room smoking and I didn't want to be in there. So his suggestion was that I go in the basement and wait! XD lol wtf. but then I guess he felt bad and wanted to stay down there w/ me. But I didn't want him to do that b/c he would be leaving his guest upstairs and his family might think we're "gettin it on" downstairs! So where did I go you ask? I waited in the upstairs bathroom w/ the door closed and all of them in his room w/ the door closed. I've never felt so isolated. And even if I did suck it and sit in that room w/ them smoking all they aer doing is playing more video games. I myself like games but not the ones he had. So I would of been in there lookin bored as hell. (I am currently still in the bathroom as I am typing this).

-sigh- I really miss my friends back in St. Louis. And I also miss my gal pals. I really do feel like a bitch though. I feel like I'm making him depressed on his birthday b/c I'm not joining in. asdfghjkl;qwertyuicvbnm FFFFFFF Fuck my life. Oh and I HIGHLY doubt we're having 'birthday sex now"....I didn't bring a condom anyway.

me in the bathroom frustrated.

My boyfriend turns 20 today! ^.^ ♥

I cannot wait to eat some of that cake his mom bought lol She got him a transformers cake! Boys will be boys lol But I can't talk b/c when I turned 19 I had a Hello Kitty cake ♥ Anyway....I'm at his house now and his friends are starting to show up.....I only know two of them lol aawwkkkward! >w< I'm so shy when it comes to meeting new people. I wish I wasn't so socially awkward. (though when it comes to meeting gals i'm more open XD lol)

i took those just sitting in his room. I'm also on his computer lol well I guess I can just put on a happy face and pretend that I like them lol lol lol

I'll add pics of the cake later.

OMG! Just saw 2NE1's new vid!

It is soooo cute and creative! They are one of my fav Kpop female groups. Hell they are in my top five! *0* sooo many colors! Eyegasm! <3 <3

New wig on the way! (short post)

So I ordered a new wig from ebay and I'm super excited to get it! I'm ready for a new style and color. It's not too different from what I usually get...mid length with a straight across bang.

This is what it looks like.

The next wig I want looks like this:

I want to get this choker necklace! The closest I can get to a tutuHA choker XD

International Manba Day!...finally!!

I had meant to post this here a week ago but I posted about it all over my facebook and tumblr so I knida forgot about posting it here. I had gotten dressed up w/ my imouto chan's Yuka and Julie. Julie is a newbie gal but I think she wore it well. ^.^ On our outing we encountered interesting people. But that always happens when me and my friends aren't dressed "normal" lol But over all we had gewd time. Although now that I look back at my make...it looks somewhat banba-ish but whateva! lol


Here are teh piccies...for those who haven't seen them already. fyi PICTURE HEAVY!

Julie

Yuka

                                            ^I've never been to that store before. It's called Love Culture <3

                                                      I took this pic by the wall of that store! So pretty!

                                            It says "culture" in the mirror <3